A Woman of Strength!

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Hello friends

It’s funny I’ve picked this image for today’s post because today I’m not feeling strong at all.  I’m so tired right now I could go to bed and not get up until tomorrow!

It is self inflicted though, yesterday we had the first LGTB Pride event ever in our county and it took place on the beach in the town where I live.  It was really fantastic.  We left home at about 10am and at 11:30 we got to see the parade after it had been through the town and was making it’s way along the Esplanade.

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After that we had to join a long queue to get into the main Pride area which included a village of food stalls and information booths, a small entertainment area and a fabulous tea tent where we could get teas served in a teapot and china cups and saucers.  There was some good entertainment in there too.  There was also an arena on the beach for the main entertainment.  The weather was good and everyone was happy it was such a lovely and friendly day.

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T was booked to DJ at the After Party that evening in a club on the sea front.  Near to the end of the day we spent a couple of hours at the venue while stuff was being set up and eventually he could have a sound check.  We managed to get home at about 8pm.  Just time to feed the cats, have a short rest and get a bite to eat and then we were back at the club by 10pm.

When we walked in it was a bit like a high school disco, the dance floor was full of young people and there was synchronised dancing going on to YMCA.

T’s set of classic House music started at 10:30 and immediately the dance floor emptied of all the young people, they seemed confused because he wasn’t playing tunes they could sing along to or recognise!  But it soon filled up again with slightly older and more serious clubbers.  I danced all through his set and at 11:30 the next DJ took over and he also played really good House music and we both danced through most of his set.  It was hot in the club and by the end my legs were cramping up.  At 12:30 T said he was tired and we decided to leave.  It was difficult because the DJ just kept playing tunes that I really wanted to dance to, but I had to admit defeat in the end.

The whole Pride event was super fantastic and we are really pleased that we were able to participate in it.

Today we have been taking things easy and tonight I’ll be having an early night!

The image above is a 30″ by 22″ painting reproducing this page from my Warrior Woman art journal:

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I don’t feel that the big painting is a good representation of the page in the book this time, but hey, you can’t win ’em all 🙂

And here is another Radiant Warrior mask:

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That’s all for now folks, take care of yourselves and I’ll see you soon.

Big love

AJ xxx

 

 

 

 

 

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Glorious Mess

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Hello friends

Summer time and the living is …. a bit busy to be honest 🙂  I am working on another big project in the garden that is going to take up a fair bit of time, but hopefully in the long run will make life a bit easier.

The image above is a painting 30″ by 22″ based on a page from my Warrior Women art journal.  Here is the original page  that is 15″ by 9″:

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And here is another Radiant Warrior mask made on my radiotherapy mask:

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Finally here is a video of an local artist Sue Paraskeva who throws beautiful porcelain pots and then smashes them. I met Sue at an event last week where she did a performance but because I was volunteering at the event was not able to see her part of the show.  Although our meeting was brief there was something about her that I really liked so afterwards I looked her up and found this video portrait.  It’s about 8 minutes long but it’s worth watching because it is so beautifully filmed and gives a much better idea of why after taking the time and care to produce a perfect pot the next logical thing to do is to smash it.  Have a look and see what you think.

SUE PARASKEVA: ARTIST PROFILE a film by Jamie Isbell

 

 

 

 

 

 

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She laughs without fear of the future.

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Hello friends

I’ve been missing again for a couple of weeks because the first weekend we had no internet and last weekend we were away from home, but I’m back again now.

The image at the top of the page is another big painting reproducing a page from my Warrior Women art journal.  The painting measures approx 30″ by 22″ and here is the original page from the journal that measures 15″ by 9″:

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And here is another of the Radiant Warrior masks:

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After my previous post T and I went to London to see The Howard Hodgkin exhibition Absent Friends at the National Portrait Gallery.  It was amazing and I really enjoyed it. Here is one of the portraits we saw in the exhibition it’s a portrait of his friend Patrick Caulfield and was painted 1991-93.  It’s called Patrick in Italy measures about 26″ by 29″ and is oil on wood.

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Now, you may think this is just an abstract painting, but Mr Hodgkin (if he were still alive) would tell you he never painted anything abstract in his life and this is a true portrait of his friend Patrick.  Although it may not look like him the painting accurately captures the feeling and memory of that time.  Personally I love it and it was a privilege to see so many (I think there were 52) portraits in the exhibition.

Last weekend we had a proper heat wave in the UK and we were lucky to be invited to go and stay with T’s brother and family in Gloucestershire.  On Saturday we went to a small festival in the village where they live, it was organised to raise funds for the local school. It was a great day with some good bands and a lovely atmosphere, the headline act were called Mr Tea and the Minions  from Bristol.  They play ‘Cheeky gypsy party music’ that’s a cross between – Balkan/Ska/Swing/Dub/Funk – happy smiley people who got us on our feet and jiggling about 🙂

On Monday before we came home we drove into Bristol to see an exhibition by one of my favourite artists – David Shillinglaw – the show is entitled Tales of Ordinary Madness –  at That Art Gallery I was very lucky because the gallery is normally closed on Mondays but they opened it especially so I could see the exhibition before I came home.

Here is a little video the gallery made to promote the show.

I bought a unique colourful print made up of faces like these.

 

That’s all for now folks, take good care of yourselves and I’ll see you soon.

Big love

AJ xxx

 

 

 

 

 

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Fire Within Me

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Hello friends

I hope all is good with you.  Last night we had another terrorist attack in London and my thoughts are with everyone who has been affected by this terrible event. Three attackers killed seven people and injured 48 others.  The attackers who were wearing fake suicide belts were shot and killed by eight police officers who fired 50 shots.  The whole event from the first call about people being run down on London Bridge to the last attacker being shot at Borough Market took eight minutes.  Congratulations and thanks to those first responders who risked their lives and took decisive action to protect others.

There are no words really, how do you try to understand and explain or comprehend these acts of terror?  I’m sorry but I have no idea.

What I do know is that I personally will not give in to them, they will not have my hate and I will not live in fear.

T and I had already planned to visit London tomorrow to see the Howard Hodgkin exhibition at the National Portrait Gallery and we are still going to do that.  I don’t want to sit at home being scared, I want to live my life and I know that I have to see Howard Hodgkin’s paintings I’m looking forward to it.

The image above is a big painting 22″ x 30″ reproducing the cover of my Warrior Women art journal and here is the original cover which measures 7″ x 9″.

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And here is another Radiant Warrior from my mask project:

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My post is short and sweet this week as I’ve other things I need to be doing right now.

Look after yourselves and I’ll see you soon.

Big Love

AJ xxx

 

 

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Art from Malaga and me

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Hello Friends

Continuing with the theme of Radiant Warriors here is another ‘mask’ I made using the radiotherapy mask I had to wear during treatment.

This week I had my 62nd Birthday and although it’s not a very attractive number it was still a cause to celebrate being alive and well.  It was a glorious sunny day and I had taken the day off work so we went out for a drive.  We stopped off at a couple of beaches for walks, lunch and ice-cream.  In the evening T took me out for a meal at a local restaurant.  It was a good day 🙂

We thought about going camping for the rest of the weekend but the weather changed, got cooler and rained, and I’m only a fairweather camper, so we stayed at home.

I’ve really been missing all that art and culture we saw when we were on holiday in Malaga at the beginning of May.

One day we went to the Centre for Contemporary Art, Malaga It’s an amazing space.  The temporary exhibitions we saw there were:

Jia Aili A Chinese artist who paints huge, futuristic and somewhat desolate paintings.  T really appreciated this art but for me, although I could appreciate the skill involved, they were too depressing and bleak.

Image source https://www.chinesenewart.com/chinese-artists11/jiaaili.htm

There was an exhibition of Studio Film Club posters byScottish artist Peter Doig, which I absolutely loved, so bright and colourful and fun.  And it seems that Peter has very similar taste in films as T and me.

Image source https://biblioklept.org/2013/08/11/peter-doigs-studio-film-club-posters/ where you can see more of the posters.

You can find out more about Peter here : https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Peter_Doig

There was a moving exhibition by the American artist Travis Somerville

You can find out more about Travis Someville’s art here: http://www.travissomerville.com/

As well as the temporary exhibitions there is a lot of excellent art in the permanent collection.  We had a great time inside this fantastic building.

Here is the bendy man sculpture at the entrance to CAC Malaga.  I took this photograph, I didn’t realise it was OK to take photos inside the Centre so the those images are not mine (I have mentioned the sources where I was not the photographer):

014 Bendy man sculpture outside the Centre for Contempoary Art

The area of Malaga where the Centre for Contemporary Art is located is called Soho, it’s an up and coming area and there is just load and loads of fantastic street art there.

Here is another of my large paintings (30″ x 22″) reproducing pages from my Warrior Women art journal:

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And here is the original page it measures 15″ by 9″:

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I don’t normally like listening to ‘experts’ explaining about art, mainly because I rarely understand what they are talking about it all sounds like gobbledegook to me, but I saw this video yesterday about an exhibition by Howard Hodgkin at the National Portrait Gallery in London.  Howard Hodgkin died in March of this year. I first discovered him when I bought a book of his paintings in a local charity shop and a bit later I saw one of his original paintings at Pallant House Gallery in Chichester.  I love his use of colour, but now I’ve found out a little bit more about him I realise what a fascinating and talented man he was.  I love the way that Paul Moorhouse takes us through this exhibition of portraits and I understand completely what he talks about.  We are planning on visiting this exhibition before it closes on 18 June:

That’s all for now folks, see you soon

Big love

AJ xxx

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Where have I been?

Hello friends, it’s been a while again!  I hope your year is going well.  I am doing well health wise.  I’ve been working on two big projects this year and both are now nearing completion so maybe now I’ll be able to get back into blogging again.  We’ll see, my track record so far has not been too good has it?

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When I finished my cancer treatment back in 2015 I was given the mask I had to wear when I was having radiotherapy:

The face maskI wanted to do something creative with it, but I had lots of ideas  and I didn’t want to do just one thing, so in the end I used the mask as a form to create a series of papier mache ‘warrior masks’. Each one fixed onto a canvas.

All the time in my head I had the title ‘Radiant Warriors’.  I felt it complimented the journal of Warrior Women I made when I was having chemotherapy.

Definition of Radiant: adjective 1. happy, glowing, ecstatic, joyfulgay, delighted, beaming, joyous, blissful, rapturous

2. bright, brilliant, shining, glorious, beaming, glowing, sparkling, sunny, glittering, gleaming, luminous, resplendent, incandescent, lustrous, effulgent

The image at the top of the page is the first mask I made.  I can’t begin to tell you just how disappointed I was with how it turned out, which is nothing like I imagined it would.  I’ve made 11 masks so far and none of them have turned out how I planned.  It stressed me out a fair bit that I couldn’t reproduce the images I had  in my head, but in the end I realised the masks turn out exactly as they are meant to be – full of imperfections and faults, just like me.  To be a warrior means you don’t have to be perfect, you just have to keep trying.

As well as mask making I also wanted to see what my journal pages would look like if I reproduced them big.  Ideally I would like to see them massive like on a wall on the side of a building, but as I don’t have a wall 30″ x 22″size paper was the biggest I could go:

This is the first page I did in my Warrior Women Journal when I was first diagnosed with cancer. It’s made of collage, painting and penwork, it measures 15″ by 9″.

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And here is the large size painting it measures 30″ by 22″:

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Now that I’ve finished the Radiant Warrior project I feel like I can move on from the Cancer thing. It’s such a relief.  Not everyone makes it though do they?  Earlier this month a very brave young woman who put up a couragous, positive and inspiring fight lost her battle with cancer.  It really hurts when this happens.

Rest in Peace beautiful Sam xxx

The other project I’ve been working on is the garden project I started back in November, to build some raised beds for T’s vegetable garden.  This is what it looked like before I started. Just look at all those weeds on the paths!!!

And here is a video of the finished raised beds.

In other news we had a holiday in Malaga city in Spain at the beginning of May, it’s a lovely place and we soaked up loads of art and culture.  I might blog about that later.

That’s all for now, I hope you are all doing well and are happy and I hope to see you again soon.

Big love

AJ xxx

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Sky above me

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Hello friends

I hope all is good with you, I am fine.

By now I should be well on the way to recovering from round 4 of chemo but we had a slight set back.  I was due for round 4 on 2 January, but on 1 January I started to feel unwell.  This has nothing to do with any late night or consumption of alcohol on 31 December as I went to bed early and I haven’t drunk alcohol for years.  I had a bad night on 1/2 January and woke up on 2nd with a high temperature.  I still got ready to go to the hospital and by the time I left my temperature was down to normal.  When I got to the chemo suite I told them I’d been unwell and was asked lots of questions, then there were a couple of telephone conversations with the doctor and it was decided to postpone the chemo for 10 days and to put me on antibiotics in case I was ‘brewing’ an infection.

Since then I’ve been feeling OK but still very tired all the time.  Sometimes the lack of energy gets me down as I achieve very little in a whole day. Yesterday the sum total of my activities resulted in a trip to the vets to get Bill Kat sorted out and I managed to do a pile of ironing – that’s it, that’s all I did and it wore me out!

I had a blood test on Friday and as long as my blood count is OK I’ll be having chemo again tomorrow.  Wish me luck!  I’m still only half way through the treatment and it’s getting quite hard now.  Hopefully the injections I’ll get to boost my blood count will help with the tiredness this time.

So Billy Kat got in the wars again yesterday.  T got up at about 05:30am to let the cats out and then came back to bed.  I got up at about 8am and by then both cats were home again, I didn’t take much notice of them apart from putting out some food for them.  T got up at about 10am and then got cross with me because he noticed that Billy had a bloody eye and I hadn’t noticed it as clearly I should have done!

We phoned the vets and they agreed to see him almost immediately so we packed him up in the carrying box and drove down the road to the vets.  Both of our cats HATE being in the car.  They don’t mind being in the box and they don’t mind seeing the vet but the short trip there is tortuous to them.  Billy whined and howled all the way.  The vet checked out his eye, and he has a big scratch just above his eye and another just below, but fortunately no scratch on the eyeball itself.  He was given a shot of antibiotic and we have some drops to put in twice a day for the next few days.  Today he is looking a bit better although his eye is swollen and he’s not very happy that he’s been ‘grounded’ until it heals up.

We don’t know how the injury happened, he could have been fighting with his brother (as they don’t like each other much), another cat that had strayed onto ‘Bill’s’ territory or he could have caught a bird or rat that put up a fight.  That’s what happened the last time he got injured, he caught a large rat but it bit him and did a fair bit of damage before he managed to kill it.  For a while after that he was more timid and home loving, but clearly he’d forgotten all about that when he went out to patrol his territory yesterday.

The page above is the front page of my Warrior Women Journal which is finished now (yay!) and there’s just the back cover left to share.

Stay well and happy friends

Big love

AJ 🙂 xxx

 

 

 

 

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Happy New Year!

Strength and Dignity

Hello friends!

Wishing you a very happy and healthy new year!

Well 2014 was certainly a year to remember but I am so looking forward to the new year, to getting through the next 3 rounds of chemo then, getting good results on the regression or elimination of the cancer and finally getting my health and strength back.

Despite my being the Christmas Grinch I actually had a good time, I saw the French side of my family just before Christmas that is my brother, his wife and my nephew and niece. On Christmas Day T and I had lunch with my parents and then in the afternoon my older brother and his wife joined us.  I got lots of really lovely gifts too and I’d like to thank all my family and friends for their generosity.

This week I’ve been feeling a lot better but when I had a blood test yesterday my white cell count was a bit low, so that now has to be monitored.

On 2 January I go in for round 4 of chemo, the drug that was taken out last time has been put back in but at half the strength or quantity I had previously.  In my ‘take home’ pack this time as well as the three lots of medication I will also have some fibre sachets and some injections that will need to be given to me on the fifth day after the chemo one a day for 5 days.  I have been told that I can give the injections myself and they will show me how, but I’m not sure I’ll be able to jab myself with a needle.  If I can’t then the district nurse will come and do it for me.  These injections are something to help build up the white cells.  Ah well that’s something different to get used to  😐

2014 has been a crazy year – we finally got our new kitchen installed (by ourselves – it took us 3 months to complete! ) after waiting nearly 20 years; the summer delivered some lovely sunny weather and that always makes me feel good; the local history group was as busy as ever with lots of exhibitions and events throughout the year; I really enjoyed the Arts Festival; I got to go to a Buckingham Palace garden party, I got a new job and pay rise within the company I work for, unfortunately I only did the job for a short time before I became sick but when I’m well I am looking forward to doing the new role and doing something that will be more challenging and rewarding than the data inputting I was doing for the previous 18 months; I have received lots of love and support from family and friends both near and far and I’ve realised that there are lessons to be learnt and good things that can be taken from bad situations.

Still, roll on 2015 and hopefully getting back to normal.

The page above is the last page of the Warrior Women Journal and was completed a few weeks ago. I have also now finished the cover and will share that with you over the next two posts.  I like the bright colours and the smiling warrior woman.

Today I am especially thinking about my friend Ruth who I met online a few weeks ago. She has had a much longer and harder journey than I have so far but she has faced each challenge with grace and dignity.  Right now things are really tough for her and she’s off line and taking time for herself.  I am so grateful to have met you Ruth and I’m holding you in my thoughts.  Onwards and Upwards.

Thanks again to you all for your support and love and please know that I wish every single one of you all the very best for the coming year – let’s make it a good one 🙂

Take care of yourselves

Big love

AJ 🙂 xxx

 

 

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Don’t be fooled

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Hello friends,

Sorry it’s been a while since I last blogged so I hope all is good with you.  I am doing very well at the moment.

It took me ages to get over the second lot of chemo, I thought I would be OK to return to work after a week but I still felt very tired so I went to see the doctor and was signed off work for 2 months!  I’m a bit disappointed as I wanted to carry on as normal for as long as I could but the reality is even when I’m feeling OK I still don’t have masses of energy and maybe it will be good to just rest for a while.

The past few days I have been feeling much better and have been trying to catch up with things that just got left (like housework, christmas shopping and art) while I was feeling so tired but I am making very slow progress and in fact I haven’t done any art since I was last in the chemo suite.

The page above is from my Warrior Women Journal and I completed it a few weeks ago (fortunately or I’d have nothing to share with you today). The quote says “When life feels overwhelming don’t be fooled into thinking that more action is needed.  To create order and peace get quiet, go inside.  You will find everything you need right there”  I’m sorry I don’t know who to attribute this quote to, but I didn’t make it up, I’m not that clever!

Today I went and saw some of my friends and colleagues from the Ryde Arts Festival team at the Green Wreath making event at St Thomas Church and then I went to visit my friend Sally-Ann who is emigrating to Ireland next week.  Sally-Ann and her family (husband and son) are busy packing up the entire contents of their house to ship off to Ireland.  I was pleased to see her before she sets off but I could see there was still loads of packing to do so I only stayed long enough for a cup of tea and a short chat.  I don’t think I would be brave enough to emigrate so I am full of admiration for them and wish them well for their new life and adventure.

Being off work means that I am finding it difficult to keep track of the days and when things need to be done.  I am sleeping a lot now.  Before I got the cancer I used to go to bed early and get up early, now I go to bed early and get up late so half the day has gone before I really start to get going – it’s a weird life!  Next week the important things to remember are a friend coming to visit me on Tuesday, seeing the consultant on Wednesday and then chemo all day on Thursday.  I wonder if it will knock me out of action again this time? Probably, but we’ll just have to see.  Still at least having it next week should mean that I am over the worst of it by Christmas.  Lets hope so anyway.

Seasons’s greetings to you all I hope you have a lovely Christmas and I wish you all the best for the New Year.

Big love

AJ xxx

 

 

 

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Weary…

You got this, Keep going

Hello friends

I hope all is good with you, I am doing fine, but I am really weary.

I had my second round of chemo 4 days ago and it has surprised me just how extremely tired I felt afterwards.  It is pretty tiring just sitting in a reclining chair for 7 hours while various drugs are dripped into my system, but let’s be honest many people have to endure far worse things than that and it’s all for my own good.  I knew that chemo would make me tired but after the first round I was OK until I stopped taking the steroids but this time the fatique hit me almost straight away.  So I’ve been doing lots of resting.  I spent most of Friday (the first day after the chemo) just wrapped up on the sofa, either sleeping or watching tv.  On Saturday I ventured out for a walk in the town and tried to do some shopping, but by the time I got home I was shattered.  Later my brother and his wife, Mu, who came over from France for the weekend, came to visit me.  It was lovely to see them and we had a good chat.  They gave me some really lovely hand and moisturising cream which is good because I’ve also been told that chemo dries out the skin.  After they left I spent the rest of the day resting.

Yesterday we all had lunch at my parents house, that is Mum & Dad, Mike & Mu (from France), Dave and Jen (my other brother and sister-in-law) and T and me.  Mum did a good job of creating roast dinner for 8 especially as 4 of us don’t eat meat and we had to have something different from the rest.  Mum never thinks her dinners are good enough, (but honestly Mum it was good and) all the plates were empty by the end of the meal.  I was so exhausted though I didn’t really participate too well in the socialising, but I think they all understood.

Today I’ve been feeling a bit better but I stayed off work to have more rest.  I did go for a short walk this afternoon because it was cold, but dry and sunny and I felt like I needed to move my legs and later I did a bit of easy sorting out of papers.  I’m not sure how it will be tomorrow as I’ve no more steroids to take so I may be even more fatigued, but I’ll just have to wait and see how I feel when I get up.  I would like to get back to work before the end of the week though if I can.

The good news is I haven’t felt ill just tired and a few other minor side effects but nothing serious.  Being tired means you have to rest and that’s all right. It does mean that there are lot’s things that are not getting done, but that’s OK too – apart from the Christmas shopping which is beginning to cause me some anxiety.

So rest is good and sometimes it helps to quiet everything down and just centre on the moment.  That happens mostly for me when I just sit and doodle in my journal.  This Warrior Women journal is really special to me it’s really helping me focus on how I can best look after myself and learn from this journey.

The image above is from the warrior women journal and I currently have about the same amount of hair as the girl in the picture.  My hair came out really fast but I’ve been left with a very thin layer of stubble, maybe that will come out this week?  Do you know what? Even having no hair isn’t as bad as I thought it would be, it’s just strange, a new experience, not exactly fun yet, but I’m working on that 😉

The quote says “Sometimes the strength within you is not a big fiery flame for all to see, it is just a tiny spark that whispers ever so softly “You got this, keep going'”

I hope all is good and wonderful in your part of the world.

Big love

AJ xxx

 

 

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