Another Lost Weekend

Hello friends

I hope you are all well and happy?

So here is another page from my Landscapes Journal, might be a landscape of the microscopic, who knows? Certainly not me.

Not that happy with the end result of this page, but I enjoyed the process of making marks on the page and that’s what counts.

This is the original page before I did anything with it:

So this is another lost weekend in our house, it just seems relentless at the moment, the waves of the Bipolar sea just keep crashing in with little time for recovery before the next one comes. There is nothing I can do but try and be supportive and try not to take things personally (which is harder than you would imagine) and keep busy until he’s ready to come back from that deep, dark place.

Yesterday I found out where the leak is in my van so hopefully I can get it sorted out now. After that T (who seemed to be OK at the time) asked me if I could prune a shrub in the garden and bag up the waste. We didn’t have any empty bags so I took a car load of full bags to the tip and when I got home about an hour later I pruned the shrub while T went for a nap. He did get up briefly after that but I could tell the black cloud had descended upon him and he soon went back to bed where he has mostly remained. He gets up occassionally but he’s not looking good and doesn’t really want to converse so I guess it’s good that he is spending as much time as possible asleep.

Today I have done housework and washing, the sun is really bright today but it’s very windy and a bit cold, fortunately so far the garden fence panels are still in place but I hope the wind dies down soon. I really don’t want to have to replace them again!

In a while I will go and see Mum and Dad to see if they are OK, They are both still struggling since they returned from their respite care in the nursing home after their accidents. Mum no longer has to wear the neck brace, but her lower back gives her constant pain. She is managing to get out of the house a bit. Dad seems to have a constant chest infection and he is hardly leaving the house at all, he seems a bit depressed to me which isn’t really surprising as his world has shrunk considerably over the past year. Hopefully he will cheer up when I visit.

That’s all for now folks, take good care of yourselves and I’ll see you soon.

Big Love

AJ xxx ❤

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7 thoughts on “Another Lost Weekend

  1. Sounds like you’ve got so much to contend with at the moment Janette. I’m so glad you manage to be creative sometimes. I know how difficult it is to do when you’re worrying about so many other things. But if you’re anything like me, you probably go a bit cranky when you can’t be creative in some way. I hope Tony surfaces soon and your fence doesn’t come down. It’s really windy here too and mines looking very unstable. Much love to you both xx

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    • Thanks Cheryllous, the cycles are really fast at the moment so he will bounce back, but then another one comes along. Neither of us really know what’s going on, just got to keep holding on and trying to enjoy the ride!

      Yes I do get cranky if I’m not creative, I also lose my motivation, so at the moment I’m just trying to play and make marks and hope I will get back into making art.

      Fingers crossed our fences stay up 🙂
      Big love from us too xxx ❤

  2. Dear Janette I am so sorry to hear of your multi problems. I wish I could help, do remember I am only just round the corner from your Mum and Dad and would be able to be there in a couple of minutes if there is anything I can help with.
    Best wishes to you and Tony and hope that the darkness recedes.
    Much love,

    • Thank you Carol, I will try and get around to visiting you for a cuppa I promise. At the moment though I never seem to get any time. Mum and Dad are still fiercely independent and looking after themselves but it does get harder and harder for them. I just need to keep an eye on them at the moment. We are trying to get a referral for Tony for his mental health which is all over the place – rapid cycling between severe depression and hypomania and back again, his physical health is also not too good. I am having to contribute a lot more to household duties than ever before and still working full time. It’s fine, just means a lot of my ‘me’ time is eaten into and recently my energy levels have dropped. it’s OK though we will get through this, it’s just life isn’t it. Hope all is good with you?
      Big love from me xxx

  3. Hi Jeanette, I’ve been meaning to say how much I love this work for ages and finally have!!! The colours and pattern,texture are so cool. Hope you and Tony are well. Look forward to seeing more of your fab art work. Much love, Sarah x

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