I hope all is well with you, I’m doing fine.
It’s been a while so I thought I should update my blog. Here is another page from my Warrior Women journal. I am learning acceptance – sometimes you don’t need to put up a ferocious fight in order to overcome life’s difficulties, sometimes you just need to accept things as they are.
After round 1 of chemo I didn’t feel too bad, nowhere near as good as I felt before it, but nevertheless not too bad. I even went to work the next day but I didn’t get there until 11am and everyone was out of the office and I had nothing to do so I left again at 3pm. Still at least I made the effort.
I had medication to take in the week following the chemo to help with the side-effects. The side effects I was aware of were nausea (but I had tablets for that), tiredness, aching legs and everything tasted strange but I certainly did not feel ill.
I had enough steroids to last me 5 days and then on day 6 which was last Wednesday I felt like I’d been hit by a truck. I actually got up early and started getting ready for work, but everything was a struggle, and after I found myself just lying on the sofa for half an hour I realised I couldn’t go into work. I phoned in and told my boss I needed to take sick leave and went back to bed where I stayed all day. I did get up at about 4pm, had a bath, put clean pyjamas on and went back to bed. Finally got up at 8pm and watched tv for a couple of hours. I took the next day off work too and went back in on Friday.
Over the weekend I was OK and we took Mum and Dad out to lunch on Sunday, by that I mean that I drove but in fact they treated us to the lunch. I ate far too much and my stomach was uncomfortable afterwards.
I’ve been back at work this week and on Tuesday evening I went to a Remembrance Day service held in the chapel in the cemetery. My house is actually in the cemetery so I only had a short distance to walk. I saw a lot of my friends from the local history group there but I didn’t stay long after it finished because I felt very tired. Yesterday I was also struggling with tiredness and today I’ve phoned in sick again because I just don’t have the energy to do much at all. I think my hair is beginning to fall out now too and my scalp feels uncomfortable 😦
I went to see the ‘wig’ lady the other day, but I really don’t know if I want to wear a wig, a couple have been ordered on approval but I did tell her that I’d have to have T with me when I went to see them because he will tell me honestly if they look terrible. I’ve a feeling that wearing a wig all day will be uncomfortable too and I just don’t think they look realistic. Well not the ones I can afford anyway. I’ve got head scarves and hats ready for when I need them.
Next week I have to see the consultant haematologist on Wednesday and then on Thursday all day at the chemo suite for round 2 – ding, ding!
So that’s where I am at the moment, I feel like I’m doing OK just wish I had a bit more energy but we can’t always have what we want can we and I know I am luckier than many people so I’m not complaining.
Wishing you good health and happiness my friends